woke up on the wrong side of life.

everything is oh so well, i'm very sure about it eh. everything is going well, everything is in control, everything is great, everything is planned nicely, everything is going according to everyone's liking, LIKE HELL WOULD IT BE. -.-

oh shucks, i'm being so ugh-ish suddenly. looks like lynn cannot make me optimistic at all. :/

i'm so scared of school now. is like so many untouched things i have to rush through and i don't even have to mood to. i feel like i'm just talking and not doing anything about it and that is not good at all. but i can't seem to help it! i'm ruining my whole life totally by being so slack and not studying at all in sec two! it's the important year other than sec four. have to choose the subjects and it really determines what you will be when you older. zomg, this is all scaring me. why can't we all stay babies and lead a carefree life. i won't mind one bit having to change diapers everyday, rather that face all the daily problems, rather than face all the pile of homeworks, rather than face the stupid faces of unreasonable teachers, rather than face algebraic fractions that i don't understand one bit, rather than face troubles troubles troubles. D:

a new start a fresh start a good start, is the best that strives one forward. and right now, i know that my term 2 would be as bad as term 1, or worse. i had the worse first day ever. and i believe i'm going to have a bad day everyday. first day of school wasn't good for me at all! i woke up having messy hair, ugly face, big pimple popping out, bad mood. and then i reach school, there are more things to make me feel "i suck like how the whole world sucks"- mood.

morning was bad, i woke up to find that i have a big big pimple popping out. which makes me more than ever, a PF. oh gosh, and then my hair didn't listen to me and frizzled like crazy. went to school later than usual and went up to 209 classroom to take my things. spent my time with wanxin up there and wanxin said something that surprisely, cheered me up. it isn't exactly true, but it was a good comment :]

morning assembly was great, seeing all my classmates again and seeing 101 people. haha they are still cuter than ever, just that something shorten huh! lol then talked to yanlin and started highing due to her LEK surname. until now, i still dunno what's lek in chinese, oh nooo, i shall find out very soon cause yanlin already know mine! lol then brought 101 back. i always like bringing my class back, cause i get a lil' private time with lynn, when i can talk and share my thoughts with. either high with her or just low till she scolds me for being pessimistic! it's great to know LYNN! <3

yeap, talked to lynn a lot today, and i was really feeling down and not good. so thanks lynn for cheering me up. i'm not sure about trying to be optimistic this term, cause i tried it for 5 terms and i'm sick and tired of it. and the thing about falling down is true. i really don't feel like standing up anymore, cause once i stand up, people/ things push me down again. so why bother to stand up when i will end up down again };

went back class feeling a teeny weeny bit better. then i stoned for awhile staring at the colourful green board. lol then ms chng came and i forgot to bring my bio ws! ahh the thick one, i'm so forgetful. how can i forget something the first day of school. i feel worse than ever, forgetful shuning, silly shuning, sucky shuning~

history was good, i always loved history. and we are starting world war two soon! GREAT, i love studying on world war 1 & 2, pretty much interesting. yeap, i just love ms ng's explanation on the relationships of europe countries. it was very creative of her to draw stickman, and how to draw a weak country was funny too. but it was very memorable lah, so i remembered already. i think france is pretty stupid, but i like french and i'm going to learn it someday, idc! and yuhan slept cause she was feeling tired and weina was being bored. lol jingzhen copied the whole thing onto her textbook and it was very "cramp" cause not enough space. haha i was just listening attentively to ms ng and i'm sure she appreciates it! LOL -.-

chinese was great, i tell you. today's 3 periods lesson is the nicest, cause LLF WAS ABSENT, so we had the whole 3 periods free. it was a very good feeling and i spent my time with xieyuhan, who is THE ROCKER. mwahaha i was being happy cause llf wasn't here and i was quite sad too cause i wanted to hand in my compo, which i feel accomplished about! lol peixian and yuhan's compos were very touching and their elit poems was nice too. hahaha i had fun reading them aloud :D

math was scary. i finally explained to yuhan why i dont like math, cause i'm scared of BLACKFURRYROUNDTEDDYBEAR, who teaches us math. he was very scary and said how some of us couldn't catch up with his pace. like helloo, you go through so fast and then like what's your problem loh, people write slow, have slower minds to "digest" your notes cannot meh. sheesh, i just can't keep up and my math isn't good. at least i'm trying my best and you are not helping at all };<

pc was boring, i just slacked throughout. wasn't in a happy mood luh, esp cause i saw my report card again and once again, i fall. then thought about some things, and i was feeling down again. thenthen jingzhen made me laugh unexpectedly by singing with her unique fake voice. HAHAHA it's super cute!

acc was boring, not as high as before, cause benny ng is back. so we were very sian cause we couldn't shout across the classroom, cannot sing, cannot shout, cannot scream, cannot laugh, cannot look at phones, cannot talk while doing work. but at least i had fun with jingzhen lah. she's seriously nice, and i'm happy to know her and get so close with her now! i hope we can remain is close as ever and high! cause IT ISN'T RAIN OR SUN, IT'S SHUNING AND JINGZHEN :D

yeap, after school was happy cause of one wave. i think i'm pretty stupid. and then stayed back to do history project. i think wanxin is nice to talk to, seriously is. and i always like talking to her, cause she's just like nodding her head and i think she understands my situation sometimes perfectly well. tada, and yeap i managed to think of questions questions on efforts made by british to protect singapore. i think japan is very clever lah, and i think i dislike british as much as japan too! japan, cause they attacked us and killed so many of us, boo. british, cause hello, it's your responsibility to protect us, and now you let us get killed, how nice. so yeap, i'm loving history. HAHAHA, :b

piano was good, i like aunt suling alot! she's one of the best teacher i ever had. and she never fails to make me smile and laugh. hahah she's enjoying her life like crazy while i'm hating life! lol and her ways of enjoying life is very interesting. haha, and i love mom more than ever today. had a nice talk with her on the way home and she's sweet alright! :D

back home and i don't feel like doing anything. looks like i gotta buck up and BUCK UP YOU PIG, WHAT TIME IS IT NOW, HOW MANY THINGS HAVE YOU COMPLETED? ALMOST NONE, SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING HUH, SLACKING AGAIN. YOU PIG YOU PIG. GO DO YOUR WORK LAH AND STOP TALKING ON MSN, AND STOP LISTENING TO SONGS AND START DOING WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO DO. AND STOP GIVING ME THAT IDIOT FACE. THE END. ):

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and JINGYI, i hope everything has gone well for today and i love you more than ever okay! take care and always smile! don't give up so easily, things can get better and change in time `x3

and KARINE, i really love recieving your letters and your pretty envelope! ahaha and you are real sweet in the letters and thanks for giving me something you have never gave a junior before! i shall cherish it and i'm happy to know you `x3

i shall listen to my "scoldings" and bye, i'll try my best! LYNN PLEASE HELP ME, KARINE PLEASE HELP ME, YOU PLEASE HELP ME! :D:

pebble.