i'm going crazy.

A Crazy Little Thing Called Love.


hahaha so random, it's a cute song, i heard from the syf concert! :D damn cute, i can't believe i'm so random till i thought of it. -.-

i realised that i get high or low very easily. i got high when i got home, and now i'm low. it's the same old cycle these few days, and i hate it. >.-

1. YAY, IT'S FINALLY END OF TERM ONE. it has been such a tough term for me. so many new things for me to handle and challenges! i'm really glad that it has finally passed and it's a break now(:

2. i think i somehow suck. i seriously think so. i have no talent, at all. not good in studies, music, harp, relationships. oh my, ain't i such a loser who can't do anything right.
studies: my goodnesss, how lousy can i get for results. i'm really worried about council, cause they are going to see our results! ahhhh.
music/harp: i can't play, for goodness sake! i can't. i just can't play, i can't memorise, i can't read notes so quickly and it's so damn hard to play chords now on harp, with all the banana fingers beside me. seriously, i just show such a great contrast by sitting next to them.
relationships: i get so AHH over relationships. friendships, oh, how i get headache everytime.

3. i'm seriously not motivated at all. no more energy to push me. i look at my report book and stare at those lousy digits. and i somehow dont feel anything. i felt sad, but now i dont even feel anything. as if i dont care. i do, but i just dont feel like doing anything about it. i want to, but nothing push me. it's only words saying "oh, i want to strive hard, i'm going to aim for high marks". yet, im still not doing anything about it.

4. i seriously need to buck up! :/

MY GOODNESS, how i miss those times .. ):


TODAY!
1. it seriously feels weird to be wearing new tie and badge to "work" today morning! hahah but feels good too :D

2. new PRC people are joining council! everyone relax~ BREATHE IN&OUT :b

3. english was pathetic, everyone were yawning. poor ms kali. hahaha it was seriously cold tooo ):

4. bio was boring. i totally felt like sleeping. wasn't high, and it was colddd. booo, what a nice weather to sleep .and no more mrs lip! very sad, so i wore jacket and became emo, according to jingzhen -.-

5. nornie came today!~ and the poem we read was very funny!

6. 3 periods of llf was of course, unbearable. i was doodling on my textbook while writing down notes. hahaha she kept scolding us and comparing to us to 205. why must people compare! ><

7. math was okay, it was normal. as usual, mr liu wasn't happy with us.

8. enrichment was fine. but i was very sad. and had no mood at all. then somemore the instructor somehow got pms and was very strict today. no fun~ then in the end joanna made me high. THANK YOU <3

9. harp was okay, hahaha almost slept, but then soon became high and then started laughing about. but no lynette to silly with. :/ very sad, but hahah there was yixin to talk to! (:

10. went to eat at clementi, and no appetite. hahah mom was very worried about my health, cause lately i have been saying "我饱了" very quickly, after eating only a few mouth of food. but i'm okay! just feeling unwell everywhere. o,-

11. homed and then yaye, internet i love you :D hahaha, chat and then scanned through my file. and i shall take back my art stuffs on tuesday! i shall not trouble people to take things for me(:

12. i feel hungry, but no appetite. my stomach is hungry. but i look the food and say NO! :b


shall not reply to tags still. i love "collecting" tags -.- then after that, reply to everything at one go! WOOOSH~

i really miss those time, so carefree. i'm really crazily in love with you.

-shue.