No stars are shining yet again.

I can't keep this going on, it's tiring. I need to rest, but there isn't a rest stop anywhere ahead.


Hello dears, I'm real tired now. It's been a long weekend from friday till now, and i had a tiring and terrible weekkkk. This week wasn't very smooth throughout, but thank you to those who kept me hanging on! I've not been online or using the computer from thursday night till now. Had a tight schedule and not a time squeezed to use computer. I'm not in a mood to do anything now, so i shall not elaborate much. :/

Friday was ohsotiring for me, the whole day was packed! After school had harp, so quickly rushed to music room with chengyee. Then we slacked around, aha it was the only time i had to rest. Then we decided on the details of harp tee and jacket, and hsiehhui went to check the prices and colours at queensway. I'm really quite looking forward to having harp tee/jacket, feels very united. Cause i've all seen friends being so close to their cca mates and they go out, etc. Then now harp we have our very own shirt and jacket! Haha it was only shirt at first, but we decided to have jacket too, as it was freezing cold in the music room all the time and it's quite cool huh! Yeap, ms wong came and we practiced the speech day songs and also mozart. The second syf piece sounds super weird lah the tune, and i don't really like it. Sigh i must make myself like the two songs and practice real hard for gold with honours next year! Then after cca, quickly rushed down to find Mr Liu. Yeap he was pretty nice and quickly explained to me about my corrections, knowing that i need to rush off. Then went to eat at clementi hawker centre, just grabbed some snacks and then we went to see house! The whole place was pretty neat but the lift was quite stinky. lol we had to climb stairs even after sitting the lift. grr then i had muscle ache from the 2.4 running on wednesday! The house was pretty nice but very dark. The owner already found a house in Australia, so he decided to sell the house. haha the rooms were pretty big, but the living room was too cramp, so we're still thinking of it. It's just beside a newly wedded couple and they had their house renovated till very nice! Mom said that if we buy a smaller house, we would have enough money to renovate it, but if we buy a bigger one, we would have to bear with the designs of the house, the previous owner had. I seriously pray for one at Toh Guan, cause it's more convenient! Then we quickly drived home and i had 15 minutes to get ready myself and go down again. It was pretty rush for me but i managed with mom's help! The place was quite far and i slept on the way. Then reached there and then just slacked around and talk to my cousins and we just sat around at the playground, not in the mood to do anything. Then about 9 plus, we just went back the void deck and took out our work to do. Then my cousins were pretty interesting and had a nice time with them! Yeap, then 12plus we just left and then i plopped on my bed the minuted i reached home.

Saturday morning was nice with mom and yanlin! Yeap, i had to meet yanlin at jurong popular at 10 then i ate breakfast with mom in macs! Hahah the hotcakes is really delicious and thanks mom a truckloads for it! Then me and yanlin went to popular, then on the way saw many nanhuarians doing flag day. Oh man, i want to do flagday! I think it's fun but very tiring though. Yeap we spent a whole one hour shopping around popular to find reasonable prices for the things we had to buy. Heh i think yanlin is super good at saving money and i learnt a few tips from her, hahah! Yeap then we just slacked around then went to library to cut the plastic boards. I shall officially call yanlin the 女强人, cause she's indeed one! Then i really really enjoyed myself, thanks yanlin! Managed to take my mind off things, then i had a nice meeting with care group! Yeah, thanks wing for the chocolate it tasted interestingly weird! Hahaha then tuanqi was quite fun, i was in the same group as weexin! Hahaha i kept bullying her and teased her about our heights then also massaged her. Mwahaha i'm the one and only person whom she's not scared of, when times of massaging! Hehheh then the games were pretty fun lah, then quickly rushed off cause the whole thing ended late, whooops. Went upstairs and grabbed my bag and quickly went down to meet my aunts then we just rushed to IMM to fetch my mom, yay she has good taste to choose bags for cassie. lol then we reached there and i felt very awkward cause they were saying all those stuffs that i don't understand, i think they 念经, then got one munk 念经 then suddenly stopped to rest, hahah. Then 2nd aunt just brought me around then i just settled down with her at a table there and did my work! Yay then soon the 念经 was over, so we just did our work, yay cousins power! We managed to finish the work we brought to do, and felt super accomplished. Then i just listened to music on Danny's psp, thanks yuan! Yeap, almost finished twilight already, then everyone started helping out with the blankets etc. Then mom bought ice milo for me to make me wake up cause i was quite tired already! Lol then finally we reached home at like super super super late, i think 1 plus or 2. Then quickly went to sleep again, sigh.

Sunday, today morning i had a hard time waking up, haha mom was practically calling my name till she got aghhh, and told my sister to wake me up. Lol i was really tired and we had to wake up at like 8. Then quickly changed and got ready to go. Then i felt super weird not attending service, afterall i always attended it except for one time, cause i was sick. Yeap then no more plain black/white clothes to wear, so i had to wear the the patterned one and wear the black overall thingy that karine gave! Then we managed to get there on but it was a long long journey. Then went there they had to 念经 again, so i just stood at the side watching loh. Then bowed to pay respect then quickly went to comfort mom. Yeap soon we had to walk the carpark thing behind the van, following all the relatives etc. Then finally we reached the place, and etc. I seriously have no mood now, grr somemore i'm alone at home! ... Went back to the void deck then everyone just ate quietly, then went back with sista. Have to finish up the elit project, then do math! At night still got service to help out, i'm tired.

My mind is bursting, i need to take my mind off things, but somehow i tried and i couldn't.


I'm sorry, I just don't feel like replying to tags today, but thanks for keeping my blog alive, and for those encouragements.

pebble.

Dear god,
I'm really konked out now, and I'm being really emotional here. Please help me and give me strength, so that i can buck up again and have strength to do what i have to do. Dear god please let me be awake and quickly finish up my work, and please let me calm down inside and have the courage not to fear. I'm scared, and I'm tired out.
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