it's anywhere, it's everywhere.

LIFE IS GREAT, i think. it's seriously not as bad as i thought it would be now. at least for this week, it's alright! i have lovely friends who just made my birthday wonderful, i have wonderful seniors who give me hugs and kisses, i have nice friend who doesn't mind being a listening ear to/for me, i have great people to go out with, i have funny people to high with. for all these, i shall try to make the best out of life and seriously try not to POUT. i wonder why i always seem to pout. i don't even know that i pout most of the time, unless someone told me. lol i shall try to smile but it's not very easy to put a smile on your face all the time. i wonder how people remain cheery and everything after a long tiring day and give a best smile when they look at you and say hello!

i seriously have many things i have to catch up on! there is so many work to be done and i'm still not catching up on sciences, math, chinese! these three are the most stupid things that always make me pull my hair and go argh all over. and there are so many upcoming tests, i just can't have the motivation to pull myself together and work hard. there is history test and chemistry test on monday, and i have not flipped a single page of the textbooks at all or read the notes at all. i'm going to flunk it and all i'm planning to do is to do a last minute revising which is so not good. and friends, i think i've been catching up alot with some friends, and just totally drifting away from some! i'm so sorry and i seriously feel bad. i'm really thankful to have friends and having friends is such a wonderful thing. i should try my best to catch up with studies, and talk more to some friends!

problems are rushing in, in a big big gush. lol it's like one come, two come, three four come. it's just so arghhhh annoyingly horrible that problems just always happen on some people, while some people are just leading a perfect wonderful life. i'm not, and i'm jealous of people who have wonderful life. i can't help it. lol problems are just so saddening, it really dampens my mood whenever a problem comes and i already have a whole stack of it. some problems are not really on/about me, but it's very closely related to me and i'm like getting so aghhhh over it. grr different problems and i seriously dunno how to handle them. maybe i'm too sensitive or whatever, but i think i'm having too much problems, saddening ones, to handle. sigh many christian friends keep telling me to have faith and that god will only give you problems that you can handle. but right now i seriously don't feel like handling anything at all and i don't think i'm up to that standard of having so much problems that i'm having now. being high is actually a form of covering up sadness, sometimes. cause you get high and then you start jumping around and doing crazy stuff, and that stops you from thinking sad stuffs. so i suppose it's good, but it's very rare for me to get high and i thank god whenever i am. lol :/

yeap, so far this week was a great one, except for some minor errors but i'm over and done with it, cause i decided not to care so much it hurts! lol yesterday was a great great day, and a wonderful night with karine and lynnnnnnn! :D

KARINE, SHUNING, LYNN!

omg i love them to bits and pieces! hahaha we went out after school/cca yesterday! hahah me and karine's cca end at the same time, so we quickly took the mrt to meet lynn at bugis. i'm seriously very glad to talk to karine so much, esp on our way there! we really talked alot alot and i felt so 'relieved' and much better already! yeap we talked and joked till bugis, then we were so agh, cause no toilet was in sight! hahaha finally found one not-so-crowded one, and quickly changed! hahaha i wore the nice nice op birthday shirt! yay i think it's lovely cause it's BLACK and PINK. it's seriously a great great combination! hahaha woah then karine looked very prettyyyyy, andand we met lynn at the wallet shop, she came from home! haha then we saw karine's friend, anqi, and i think she's very pretty! hahah we ate good yummy delicious food and
walked around the cute cute shops! ahahaha walked around and bought random stuffs for each other, hahaha then wanted to buy a big big softtoy for karine and make her bring around the school! hahaha but we couldnt' find one, such a pityyyy. hahah rushed home and then lynn and karine were like my mom! haha so caring lah, keep smsing me whether i reached home anot. WHEEEE, THANKS LOADS FOR THE BIRTHDAY OUTING <3

today morning was greattttt, hahahah went school for NEQ and i enjoyed myself thoroughly! omg today was damn fun and high lah, i loved today like crazyyyy! haha i was the first ever to arrive at physics lab to wait for eric tan. thenthen karine and lynn soon came and then we started eating the cookie that pearlynn gave, hahaha it tasted extraordinary sweeeeeet! THANKS PEARLYNN, HOPE YOU LIKED THE CUTE PRESENT WE GOT FOR YOU! :D hahaha yeap, then i also bought things for mission impossible and love! hahaha i hope you all liked itttt! i bought magnetic clips for them. mwahaha then went to 109 with eisabess cause amanda was sick. aww get well soon! thenthen i had a fun fun time with eisabess! omg she's my new highing buddy i tell you. lovelyyy~

then during break, me and eisabess bought icecream and went around feeding people! hahaha it was very fun lah and everyone were shocked that two crazy girls were running towards them with icecreams in the hand. hahaha then finally ate finish and then bought the class up! hahaha we practically slacked behind the hall and then me and eisabess were highing! hahah everyone kept saying they were very surprised and shocked to see me so high, then i started being so lame with the oc cheers etc. then alot of people laugh and say i'm ___? like no way, hahaha i'm just high and weird. lol! then we went sumo house to quickly have our lunch! hahaha i had a nice nice time with yuhan, pearlynn, eisabess! hahaha we ran in the rain lah, it was damn shiok, then thank god we are still not sick yet! hahaha yeapppp then almost finish eating, then the rest came. hahaha i highed with my orange and then they took photo. i guess i was being so high and omg yanlin's going to post the photos! omg please noooooooooooo ;x

rushed back in time for meeting and everyone said i was damn high today! hahaha then i was being exceptionally blur today, i wonder why. hahaha meeting was great lah, then we had a fun time for the programme planning. hahah tuanqi was great i guess, then i almost lost my badge! hahaha thank god xinhang found it, tyvm! then the tee shirt is finally settled and i'm so thankful lah omg wanted to break down already. thanks yijie for telling me to chillllllll. hahaha i finally chilled down and had a fun time in qntq! grr, how come their skit so funny and interesting lah. haha we shall learn from them! hahaha the army skit was damn funny, then the tribes skit was very meaningful. thenthen my sister's group was lovely for the singing part! hahaha sista, you did perfectly well, smileee! [:

then i stoned and almost fell asleep several times, while eating at the round table. haha felt quite hungry already, cause it was 8 plus! then slacked around and talked. i kept seeing double images cause very blur and i was being so sleepy! hahaha got back home and opened my presents! whoooo love you people, this year is my best birthday year ever ever ever.

2008 IS MY SWEETEST, LOVELIEST, NICEST BIRTHDAY YEAR EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <333>

dear jingyi, i'm glad to talk to you today and i'm sorry if we didn't talk for a really long time! i hope we have time to talk and bond again! i seriously miss the times we talk and high together. hahaha love you and take care alright! stay happy and i seriously think your voice sounds great, jy for next year nanhua idol! `x3

dear roger, thanks so much for the gift. i was seriously surprised, and there was no need to get such a costly thing for me lah. thanks so much. it's your last time today, i hope you enjoyed yourself! hahaha i hope you can grow spiritually back again and come back to our church some day! hahah 2008 dec camp was be waiting for you, and you better come or you will break my heart! god bless! :}

pebble.

DEAR LOVER,
how're you today! sorry i didn't dedicate to you the previous posts! hahah i shall dedicate this one for you a long long one~

yay i'm seriously happy to see you enjoying yourself there and adapting to there well! hahaha there are many different things there right, like how you cannot wear shorts, and the food is so different, oh and the school rules! haha you better take care of yourself there yeah and then have fun in school too!

hahaha i'm so looking forward to june when you can come back and we all can go out and enjoy yourselves like never before! haha you don't change hor, stay the way you are, we love it! hahaha and don't be too black in case we can't recognise you. mwahaha who knows, maybe we look different once again too? hahaha it would be funny to not able to recognise each other then!

read your blog and found out that lessons there are not so bad for you, so i hope you can catch up there fast and be a smart student over there yeah~ then when you come back, top our school! mwahaha show them the 209 power okay! then you should be having loads of friends there with the wonderful personality you have, so have a great time with your friends okay! if anyone dares to bully you, tell me and i'll fly over immediately to slap the person's face hard. mwahaha i have my violent side okayyyyyy (;

i shall end here and seriously, i miss you like abcrazyyyyyyy D:

xoxo
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