it's nothing, really.

I felt much better after exercising. Ran on the treadmill, then felt tired after some time. Chatted with mom and I'm back at the computer!

Came to realise a few things, and now I'm feeling :S ish. Squigglish I should say, I'm not very close to some people now, although I thought we were close. It's kind of sad seeing the person you treat as good friend, treat you as nothing, just another ordinary person she knows. Maybe I really don't matter in people's lives, and if I ever die now, people won't care as much, maybe they'll say "aw, so sad. but ah well, one less person to wave to only." That's pretty pathetic, my life is completely unimportant, it's nothing. I must accept the fact, and be strong. Afterall, I must be a super strong girl, to live life. Or else I would have fall into depression and suicidal, Wing haven't seen that in our 14 years together.

I hate it when your eyes "interlink" and make eye contact. Then you give those whatever face, and you roll your eyes. Maybe you don't realise, but it's quite hurting.

Maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe I'm just being crazy. Or maybe, what I'm saying is really true, that I really don't matter much in life. Whatever, this makes me sad, not like people will really care. They wouldn't, and they shouldn't at all.

ACCEPT THE FACT, GIRL, THAT YOUR EXISTENCE IS NOTHING! :)