the results are always the same.

things never change.
things never change at all.
things never change for good.
things remain the same.
things remain the same as before.
things remain the same forever.

why can't life be perfect. i'm not a perfectionist trying to make life perfect. i merely want it to be nice, to be better, to suit me better. somehow, it always suits others better and i have to bear with it cause i can do nothing. which i'm okay with, cause i have already got used to it. but my emotions have not. i know, i'm never the good one, i'm never noticed. i'm just like the unnoticed man that you look through like a windowpane. or you guys, or everyone. it's the same every single time. when it happens to another person, oh how you people change. you go like wow, let's do it. but when it's me, its just normal okayokay whatever. ask others i have no opions kinda thang. i'm sick of it but i can't do anything. i'm tired of it but i can't do anything. i'm hating the way of all these. is it true that all these are making me stronger? no. each time i try to stand up, things always gets me falling again. im tired already. to try standing up and fall again. end up, i try crawling, but hurting myself even more. when i give up crawling and tries to stand up. i stagger and i fall again. is this a cycle for me? why is others a happy cycle and mine is unbearable. i can't understand. maybe cause im stupid. it's okay, i'm trying to get use to that feeling. i finally staggered for a long time and learnt how to walk a little. when i try walking faster, it's back again and i fall.

this is so saddening again. lol i hate to post sad stuffs. but i just want to type them out, say them out without any sounds.

lalaleh, lalalong. :D thankfully, wing's blogsong is nice so i'm getting a lil' better. at least i think so.

wheeeeeewhooooowhaaaaa= wheoa ~

1. i'm trying to get myself to go for wing's concert. it cost 20 bucks. zomg, please, anyone to go with me. heh, i shall not force people. i hate it when i ask. cause, the end results are always the same.

2. HAPPY 24 BIRTHDAY, SNTQ <3

3. today's event was good. at least it was smooth and ran well. heh, i think our group improved alot at the last minute, and i'm very pleased with that. :D yaye, gogogogo!

4. i like grapes. and grape fruit tarts. they are the LOVE `x3

5. mamamia= mama missing-in-action :D i'm very smart to think of such a lame thing. i feel very accomplished. yay.

6. i find nothing to post. -.- but i like my blogsong now. it's WHY CAN'T I. someday i will put the lyrics. maybe yes maybe no, i dunno.

7. changed blogskin. actually i had no choice but to change. a long story anyway. but bear with this. it's not very nice but it's quite nice somehow

8. i like contradicting myself. more like, i can't help it. it's irritating.

9. someone is irritating me and i feel bad to say it out. but gahgahgahh D:

10. i'm grateful to junhan for coming today. hahah he came with my sista to suprise me and i was indeed, very suprised. yay yay yayeee, he came to support. wahwahwah, i'm happy (:



-shue.

i think ning is nicer, but it belongs to my sista. cause she can't be called xin right :b

bye.