Suddenly I see this is what I want to be.

HI EARTH :D

I'm so sad because I typed a super long post via corbypro and poof! It was gone ): Oh wellllll, next time I'll post again! :)

I'M GOING MALAYSIA TMRW TILL FRIDAY! :) Just a short trip day to relax and take my mind off things! It's a pity my sister isn't going, she's the one that needs the relaxation more!

P/S. Do you think I should join dance in JC? Okay don't laugh, I can totally imagine you guys laughing at the sight of me dancing, but I really like to! :/

We are the cartoon heroes.

(Lunar New Year! Idk why the quality of the photo is so bad though. My camera's mad awesome, let's just blame it on blogger.)


Helloooooooooooooo! :D I'm going to be a very happy girl from now on, cause..

I JUST DECIDED TO BE HAPPY EVERYDAY FROM NOW ON. Isn't it horrible when you just feel down and for the rest of the day, people see your black face and they'll shun you. Then when people shun you, you just get even sadder. So smile :D I really hope I can do this, because every single time I want to do this, I'll end up being sad again. One thing that is holding me back is my ugly face ): If only I had a sweet/pretty/cute face manzxzx and loads of nice clothes! I sound like some bimbo-wannabe.

ANYWAY, ANYONE WHO IS VERY GOOD WITH LIVEJOURNAL STUFFS? I'm going to shift to LJ and I need some help :) So could you please lend a helping hand by sending me an email or just leaving a tag at the side!

Thanks, ciaoz.

Stop and enjoy the scenery.

I thought I would be posting many photos today,
I thought I would be taking an unboxing video today,
I thought I would be crazy transferring all my files today,
but I was wrong.

You can never plan what's going to happen next!

I happily rewatched all the videos on Corbypro and downloaded a few free games for Corbypro yesterday. I woke up today knowing that I would be crazily happy after school. But then they didn't have my stock, so I went to JP and again, they didn't have that particular colour. Walked over to the Samsung shop and they said Singapore didn't have this colour. Then why do you still include that colour inside the brochure? I feel so cheated and disappointed that I can type and scream out all the vulgarities I know. I waited for one whole month and it was my motivation to study. Week after week, I patiently wait for the day when I can get Corbypro and this week was especially hard to bear. I know it sounds extremely stupid to be "living" just to get that phone but I really liked it a lot a lot a lot. The colour, the keypad, the design, the functions, everything I wanted. And guess what, they didn't have! All they had was red and I didn't like it. Actually it looks fine, but I've been after the whtie one for such a long time when they tell me they don't have it, it feels like @#$%^#&$%*U^. Maybe if I knew that there wasn't any other colour except for red, I would have gotten my red happily. But I'm so disappointed and I know it's stupid but I feel cheated by the brochure. Now I'm all sad and moody and I even ate loads of food to cure my sadness but it didn't help. Hahahaha.

I was so excited yesterday, even Mom was shocked by my sudden happiness. I have been rather down these days except the times when I got back my results, I was happy. But other than that, I was extremely tired and low. To make things worse, my day hasn't been very good today too.

I bet all of you will think I'm stupid for posting just for Corbypro but I don't really care. I'm really upset, with Corbypro and other things.

The ice-cream man down the street.

It's funny how people get annoyed at you when you're copying them. In actual fact, they are the ones that are copying you all the time. I seriously won't mind you copying, if you didn't say that I copied you. Because I really don't get the reason why the "hey, don't copy me" thing gets so complicated. The world is weird.

So am I O:

I (L) having harp at home, it's just like chocolate to people. Soothe your senses, relieves all your stress, calm you down, etc. I keep playing random music on it, I should really focus on my exam pieces! Thank God having the harp at home really works, I'm improving! :D I'm supposed to be studying my for exams, but I've just finished my History so it's time for a rest. I've finished E Math during weekend, so I'm just going to do SS and Chem now :) Wish me all the best, thankyou!

Oh yes, I (L) my current seat too. Because it's at the side, not too hot, and I'm sitting beside CXF! Not only that, I'm near Evelyn, Dorothy, Geraldine and Daphne, who are so hilarious during lesson times! :D How I wish we can always have lessons like that.

I (L) my mother too! She accompanied me to NSC today, and we reached super early! I could have walked slowly instead of rushing all the way. The doctor gave me another two months of medication and cream stuffs. Hopefully it not just maintain, but improve too! :D Yay, we went to Novena and bought her handphone pouch. Speaking about handphone, I can't wait for my Corby pro! I want to type on it so badly, but they always don't put it on display. Oh well, I saw LG 620 though! Love that phone, but the price is too high. Oh well!! CorbyPro is my motivation. Cherie, CXF and Mom knows how crazy I can get over the phone :D

Shall end here, time for revision again!

I MISS DADDY SO MUCH, I CAN'T WAIT FOR HIM TO BE BACK :D Maybe he'll come back with a big ball/balloon :P

I shall call Weina when my CTs are over, because I miss her tons.

Lastly and most importantly,

WHO NEEDS CHINESE TUITION PLEASE CONTACT ME. IT'S CHEAP AND RESULTS-GUARANTEED! :) YEARS OF EXPERIENCE. PLEASE CONTACT ME FOR MORE DETAILS! :D THANKS A MILLION. SMS ME PLEASE.

Thank Godddddddddd!

I forgot to mention,

THANK GOD FOR ANSWERING MY PRAYERS! SARAH IS GOING TO LEND ME HER HARP TILL THE END OF MY EXAMS!!!!!!!!!! :D

Yay thank God so much! I'm going to go to her house to take the harp most prolly this Saturday! :) Then I can start practicing as and when I'm free. This is just awesome. Thank God for Sarah! She's really nice! :D Maybe I'll update with her nice smses soon with photos of the harp! Although it's the breton harp and hard to pluck, it's still better than nothing.

THANK GOD FOR ANSWERING MY PRAYERS AND THANK GOD FOR SARAH!!

Naive / Evian.

Hellooooooooo! :D

Yay I know I look very round at my tummy, but the point is, I LOVE NICHOL! :D Yay, and I've super long hair! I didn't know my hair was thatttt long. Oh well, nice hair that day. Hehehe, Nichol looks super sweet and pretty there y'know!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :)

I'm actually researching on the chemistry formula on how to balance chemical equations. Cause Mr Liu told us to go and find out, and since I really don't feel like touching physics till later on, I shall do my research :D Mr Liu told us that if we drink Evian water, we're really naive. Cause Evian spelt backwards is Naive ._. Quite interesting! I learnt about why the gas at home smells too :)

Okie dokie, enough of happy/random stuffs. I'm actually very upset over my results. I've no idea why my results are so bad. What's with borderline passes anyway? I just can't get better results!! No matter how hard I try, I just can't do it ): And Mom says she doesn't expect much, but I know from the way she tries to 'motivate' me, she hopes for good results too. It's perfectly normal, but I already put in my best! There's a limit, and I just can't score any better. ): Sigh, everyone is expecting me to score well since I'm hardworking, but looks like my hard work just doesn't pay off. ): I'm not even sure if I am up to being a teacher or not.

Shall carry on with my research and then do Physics revision. JIAYOU SHUNING.

PS. I really like Samsung Corbypro so much! I practically dream of it everytime I look at other people's phones. I'm so going to get it. And in case you're wondering, my phone spoilt and just nice, my plan is ending. So when Daddy comes back, Corbypro here I come!! :D

And mood swings suck. Have I ever told you that? It's so horrible to be a girl.

LASTLY, WEINA CALLED ME. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WENT TOTALLY BIZZARE. SHE CALLED ME DURING NEW YEAR!!! WAH I WAS SUPER SURPRISED, TALKED ON THE PHONE THEN MY BATTERY FLAT ._. OH WELL, I CAN'T WAIT FOR HER TO COME BACK. I LOVE YOU WEINA.

This is such a weird post, I really wonder if people still read my blog.

Sprinkle a little salt and sugar.

Just heard this on radio!

"It's actually good to have Valentines Day together with the first day of Chinese New Year. This way, I can easily handle when my relatives ask me if I'm attached or single. Because I can just reply them 'Yeah man, I dumped/cancalled my date just to be here today!'"

HILARIOUS! :D

Currently in study room with Daddy and Sister! Mom's resting in the bedroom, hope she gets well soon so that we can enjoy tonight's reunion dinner happily. Okie dokie, back to work on Chemistry worksheets! Just finished one, yay!

Who were you waiting for?

1. I miss my old friends.
2. I miss my old phone.

(If only I can turn back the time, I won't be so stupid and immature.)

Tmrw's celebration for CNY! :D Yay! :D I'm so happy! :D Because we end super early! :D At 1pm! :D How early! :D When other schools end at 10 plus! :D Great! :D We have normal lessons in the morning somemore! :D How wonderful, really! :D

Okay lah, I think tmrw everyone will just be giving out Valentine's Day gifts and cards, I wonder if I will have any cards or even sweets. :) As this is my last year, I am going to be really bold and write to some people whom I haven't talked to for almost, 2 years? Well :) Wish me luck! I do hope that I get to sit with Clara and Zihui during the CNY celebrations, or with Xiaofen! :D There'll be 4 contestants for Nanhua Idol and they will each sing 3 songs. No wonder the concert is 2 hours right! My parents told me that Mrs Tan JL emailed them to invite them to come. I really wonder whose parents will come when they can sleep or rest at home, or prepare for reunion dinner/lunch/meal, whatever. I actually don't mind the normal lessons in the morning, because I think we need it. And furthermore, the lessons are math and english! I don't like math lessons, but I love math! :D And english, Ms Rani is very nice :)

About school these days, there was a class party yesterday, which was prety fun because Xiaofen and Nichol were being very caring. Hehe went for harp and seriously, everyone should bring earphones to harp practices. Sec fours will know why! :D I'm really getting more and more high in harp now, thanks to the sec fours and Taymin. She is awesome, I really can't imagine harp without her! :D I LOVE YOU TAYMIN, and of course, Chiyien, who is my food supplier, bringing sweets and I can eat all I want, Limyuan, who always accompany me and wait for me while I eat my fruit tart, Yiyan for teaching me how to pronounce her name and accompanying me to walk around during breaks. :D I do hope the harp tee comes out soon, because I just love cotton shirts. So I'm just patiently waiting for my harp tee and class tee, which are both cotton! :D Yay. I think both designs for both shirts are pretty nice :) But I do wish for my name to be on the shirt though ):

Went on youtube to watch all the JCs' mass dances, and they were awesome. From past years, till this year, all are so cool and interesting! I'm so going to learn the different dance moves when I take a break from studying! :D It also motivates me to go to SAJC or Hwachong! :D Not because their dances are the nicest, but, I just want to go there! :D

I've been reading many chinese books lately, cause my dearest Mom went to borrow many many books from the library. I think my chinese improved! I hope I can read more english books too, so that I can improve on English too! Talking about subjects, I'm super disappointed with my chemistry. It has never been my strong subject, but it's the first time this year I scored so low for a test. Thank God it was a pass though. I shall work harder! :)

I'm going to meet Mom tmrw after celebrations at JP to have lunch and shop for my new year clothes if there's any for me, and then meet up with churchmates at 4pm to buy birthday presents! Yay I hope it's going to be quick and fast, because I still have my tuition at night. There won't be any JF on Saturday, wheee! Not that I don't like JF, I love JF, just that I really really need a break. Reunion lunch/dinner, I bet we're going to have a movie marathon again! :D Sunday will be tuition at grandmother's house while paying a visit, because Yukai is going to give me tuition there! :D Yay I think he's so wonderful.

Okie, I need to go and write all the cards and fold roses and yeah. I hope that my time and effort spent, will be well appreciated! :)

I LOVE THE WAY YOU SAY BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. ALTHOUGH IT'S KIND OF DISTANT, YOU SAID SOMETHING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Love you guys,
Shuninggggggggg.

(P/S. I'm not going to spend time puttng labels/tags for this post.)

Running out of time.

Shucks. Just when I think I can, I'm running out of time. I've not finished half of my script, my SS worksheet undone, I'm left with a million chapters for Chinese test tmrw.

Laughter is the best medicine.

This was taken on the last day of my Taiwan tour, both of our families were transferring to Hongkong, but too bad, we headed different directions! :D The older one is Faith and the younger one is Elle! I love Elle, she was super cute mannn. 'Cause we interacted a little and then she came up to me and said, "Hi, can I be your friend?" Ahhh her cute little face, how could I resist :D So I said "Sure, why not!" And she smiled at me at every chance and I smiled back of course :) I just love touring with cute little kids. This just means that I still have a little bit of charm :b

Anyway, I'm just posting to share a little story I read from the chinese SRP weekly. It's a Chinese story and I find it weird to have chinese characters in my posts, so here goes the link! It's about Bruce the lift attendant. Sec four nanhuarians would have read this story already :)

Bruce the Lift Attendant.

I think it was a beautiful story, very meaningful as well. I hope I can be like Bruce when I grow up, making a little difference in people's lives, just by little actions like "Hi there" or "Good day to you!" It would be quite a challenge for me as I'm not thattttttttt friendly in public areas, but I will try my best! :)

Updates of my life:
Something on the side note, I'm actually super super super duper duper duper extremely happy when people tag at my blog, I don't know why though :) Just feels great to know that I still have friends around me!

This week has been really hectic for me! I used to be able to sleep at 11 because I finished all my work and it's healthy to sleep early. However, lately, I sleep at 11 because I can't concentrate on my work anymore and I keep writing nonsense on my worksheets because I'm too tired. So I go to bed with work undone. How bad can it be! But thank God, the work are not supposed to be handed in the very next day, so I've a little bit of time and I just force myself to do work. Anyway, so by Friday, my work was piled up quite high and I couldn't do my work on Friday because it was harp exam practice day and tuition day. I had to rush through them yesterday and today and thankfully, I'm only left with SS research, SS worksheet, Physics worksheet and studying of Chinese words for tmrw's test. Sounds a lot right! But comparing it to previously, when I have not done anything, this is really a big accomplishment! :D I'm very proud of myself and I'm sure that I can finish the SS stuffs by today afternoon, so that when I return from church service in the evening, all I've to do is to study for Chinese! As for Physics, sorry Mrs Chiang, it's really too much ):

School life has been pretty the same, I just keep quiet at my little corner while the rest of the class talk. Then someone will ask me why am I so quiet, so I'll talk for a little, and afterwards, I won't have anyone to talk to again, so I'll just keep quiet. It's just like that, not that I'm emo or anything, I just keep quiet! :D It's quite comfortable actually, although sometimes I do feel a little lonely. But thank God for people like Nichol and Xiaofen, who will come up to me and talk to me at times :) I like recess and lunch too, because the Dorothy gang will be having a picnic in class and I will just listen to their funny conversations (not eavedropping okay!) Lessons will be quite a challenge for me, because I will just keep looking at my watch at intervals, to see how long more till the end of the lesson or to recess or to end of the school. Also, at times, I will feel so tired that my eyes are half closed ): I feel so sorry towards the teachers, but I really can't help it. It's very embarrassing too, for a teacher to say, "Shuning, I think you better sit up straight or else you would fall asleep." ): Please pray for me to have more energy during lesson time. I think my favourite lesson is now PE, can you believe it!! Only when we play rugby of course, because that's the only time when I get to move myself around and play like crazy. Another of my favourite lesson is Math. I love doing math questions now. I don't enjoy Math lessons, but I enjoy doing math questions in math lessons. Get it? :D

Here, I would like to thank God for giving me another chance to 'start anew' and be more focused on school work and church. Thank God for reducing my time on slacking and for me to be more organised and hand in my work on time. Thank God for helping me with church stuffs as well, so that programmes can go on smoothly. Also, thank God for ever patience Yukai, who would explain things over and over again, because I'm very stupid and slow. Thank God for friends too, and meaningful conversations I've had with people over the past month, January. I hope this means a good start to the rest of the year ahead!

PS. I've a sudden urge to go Hwachong! Crazy right, can you believe it?! Hwachong? Shuning? Like impossible ): But oh well, I'll work my very best and see which school I can go to. I'll just pray for the best and cross my fingers :)

Lastly, this is for my dear Clara,

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!
Here's something I dedicate to you: I'll Be There For You.

Have a good day, ladies and gentlemen!
Shuninggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

Street lights, people.

Glee is just indescribable.

:D Here are some photos to let you know that I'm still alive and kicking, enjoying my life positively! Actually they are old photos, when I was in Secondary one/two :) Let's see if I still look the same.

I MISS MY FRINGE!!! :) Sis and I, FYI.

When I had fringe for the first time in a long time, sec one! I miss Weina ):


Obviously this is in sec one, when I still had short hair, unbelievable now that my hair is so long!!

When my fringe was specially cut by 'someone' haha! This is Wing FYI.

CSW, looking stupid of course. Sec two, after my birthday :D


Okie dokie, God bless your day!

3.14159.

I don't want to live in other people's shadows anymore ):

I don't want to live for people. I don't want to keep a good impression in front of people and exhaust myself out.


Updates
1. I received an Ipod Mini from my piano teacher, who was almost going to throw it away. The colour is green, I like.

2. Yukai is my new tuition teacher and he teaches very well. He prepares for lessons and I like his explanations.

3. My flu/cough recovered, but it means no more nice deep voice.

4. I finally learnt both hands for one of my harp exam pieces. Wish me luck, I'm really worried.

5. I gained 1 kg, I bet some of you reading this are happy.


I've been thinking why do I wake up in the morning feeling so tired and moody, but once I reach school, I'm happy. I think I know why now: because God gives me strength to face the challenges each day and He provides. Although I may continuously look at my watch and wonder when will some lessons end, it means that I do not sleep anymore! :) Thank God, I no longer sleep during lessons, but I just can't stop fidgeting ):

Continue to keep me in your prayers, thank you.


Lord I really need more strength, I know your grace is sufficient and that you will not give me what I cannot handle. But it looks like I can hardly handle stuffs well. Please give me the strength and wisdom. I don't know how to continue. Amen.

Playgrounds, swings and merry-go-rounds.

I AM STRESSED.

HI STRESS, HOW'RE YOU FEELING TODAY?

I FEEL TERRIBLE, SICK, TIRED, ANNOYED AND MOODY.

AWH, FYL.

...

Lord, you catch me when I'm falling.

This is a photo of me and my awesome family. ;)

I'm updating with this post to let you guys know that although my last post was "suicidal", I didn't go and commit suicide or something. I'm still alive and kicking! Thank you for coming to my blog to tag at my half-dead tagboard, with words of encouragements and concerns. I'm really touched and encouraged. I feel much much better now, and I'm very surprised at those who came to comfort me when I was feeling down. Thank God for sending wonderful angels to look after me (L)

School has reopened and it's funny that I'm posting when I'm busy, but I hardly touched my blog when I was free in the holidays. It's hard to be happy in school now, because so far, almost everyone around me "emotional" or "depressed", influencing me as well. I'll try my best not to feel down because being "emo" is bad for health and is a bad example of a Christian.

Thank God that I have been doing my QT since the start of the year. I'm sure with my Mom's help, I'll continue with this good habit. Thank God I've been rather neat too, so far. Although my table is getting messier, my bag, pencil box and stuffs are still neat :) I really hope that I can be well-organised so that I can revise better.

As I stepped into the classroom on Monday, the atmosphere was entirely different. I could feel the study mood already as I sat down in my seat. The classroom isn't very pressurizing, but I just feel totally like a secondary four. This is good because I can study in a better environment compared to last year. As I set my targets for this year, I was really worried because my results are really very bad and I'm not sure if there's enough time for me to pull up my marks. Oh well, I'll leave it all to God :) One bad thing now is that I still haven't adjusted to school hours yet! I keep feeling sleepy at times during lessons and it's so annoying because the teacher's voice just fades away and my head just gets closer and closer to the table. I do hope that I can quickly get used to the whole school routine, so that I can learn better! :D

Pray for me, because I'm really quite weak now. Pray that I can stand strong and firm, and be a good Christian in my daily life. Oh I'm reading a Chrisitan book now, named "Down But Not Out". It's really a good book, but I'm only at the first chapter. I'm planning to update what I've learnt from the book to my christian website (YGIS).

Like what Gwyneth says, "Have a God-focused week!"

xoxo.