what if jesus came today?

[what if jesus came today? ]
( 若今日来如何？)

this was the camp theme for this year's sntq camp!
this camp was a great one.
i really learnt a lot through the sermons and the sharing times with my friends and laoshis.
it really made me think a lot
and wondered if i'm really saved.
what i learnt this year was a different kind of thing from the previous years.
previous years, are the things that we know, and we have to DO it.
this year is my first time knowing so much about jesus' second coming
and the 7 years of suffering.
i read about it before, but it was only LOOK.
i didn't really care about how important it was and how it affected me.
but this time round, with the jiang yuan's detailed notes and slideshow of photos,
i really felt scared.
what if all my family members rise to heaven
and i'm left on earth the suffer the 7 years.
the 7 years of suffering is really terrible.
there would be many 灾难s
including the burning, the iceburgs, the thing(acne??) grown on the body... etc.
it really freaked me out and at the same time,
reminded me what i should be doing.
jesus may come anytime
and we might 被提 anytime
what would we be doing then?
commiting sins? or worshipping god?
i really hope to follow god's words.
this also reminded me about my relatives
those who doesn't believe in god.
would they be going through the suffering?
and what about me..
what if i'm also left to suffer the 7 years.
would i survive through and believe in christ throughout.
and celebrate the 1000 years of happiness & peace? (千禧年)
i hope i do!

打倒魔鬼！

but what if at the end of the whole thing,
i'm to stand infront of the throne of punishment
there's a song that really affects me and it actually says out how i feel.

"他是否满意?"
parts of the songs=
1)如果今天是末日，永恒立刻就来到。
当生命册大展开，主是否对你满意？(change to 我！)
2)我曾否尽力，通过这考验？
他是否对我满意？
3)他会感到受欢迎，还是会流着泪走开？
我是否尽力而行，他是否对我满意....？

this song really describes how i feel.
i'm really not sure sometimes whether i'm really saved anot.
i did the prayer, many times
but many times, i fall and my spiritual life isn't as good.
would jesus be happy with my behaviour?
or would he walk away sadly....

i have a confession to make.
like i said,
i did the prayer before.
but many times i failed to do what i prayed to do.
i only 立志 and 立志...
without actually doing it out
it's just like last year.
after 不偏左右，遵行主道,
i prayed and i cried, to be a good christian and a 好见证 to others.
but what happened in the end?
i was attracted the worldly desires too much
and neglected my relationship with god.
i hope i don't repeat it over and over again.
it is really meaningless.
i hope me and the others,
(wing&cherrie) etc.
can really overcome the setbacks and not be tempted by worldly desires.
and when i commit sins,
i don't want to think of excuses again
like saying how god will forgive us.
god is 怜悯, but at the same time 厌恶罪.. D:
so i pray that i will be a better christian and reach the goal with my fellow churchmates
and by the next year's camp, we would once again be stronger and stronger in our faith.
as what huishan laoshi says, a group of people who has the same goal, who can share our problems and questions with each other and get back encouragements, is a very good thing.
i hope that we can do it!

I WANT TO BE A BETTER CHRISTIAN.
not just any other 立志
i really hope i don't repeat the same mistakes over and over again!




[tags replies :D]
yuhan- hahaha it is loh!!!, thank you loh(:
jingzhen- YEAH :D, viv()
huimin- hahah yes, a hole in your body~
weina- loveys x33, lol updating~
lanabel- hahah! i miss you loads!!
rachel- booooo (:
sabrina- heyyyyheyyyyy <3
firestar- yes sirrrrr.
jingyi- hahaha okay dear :D

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